Contemplating God’s love.

That’s what I’ve been doing. Contemplating His great love and sacrifice. He sent His Son to die for my sins. Would I send my most beloved to die for somebody else’s sin? Could I possibly love somebody that much? No. Absolutely not. That kind of love is absolutely unfathomable. I will never ever love someone as much as God loves me. No one will ever love me as much as God loves me. Which brought me to my next thought.

I am unworthy.

I am so unworthy. So extraordinarily unworthy. I wanted to say, “God, You’re not allowed to love me that much.” But it’s not up to me. His love for me is not based on my worthiness. God is my lover.

…So He loves me like His bride…I am His bride…He is my lover, incomplete without me…

No. False. Am I so arrogant to think that the all-holy God would not be fully Himself without me? God is fully Himself always. God would be God–and completely God–even if I had never existed. His completeness is not dependent on my existence.

I am not His bride.

I am His beloved, but it is not because He would be incomplete without me; it is because His bride would be incomplete without me.

I am a part of His bride.

This too is unfathomable: that God loves us and chooses us because His bride would be incomplete without us. That His chosen, His beloved, would be diminished if we were not of it…That is an amazing thing.

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