I’ve been going to my church for 13+ years. My family goes there. My niece and nephew. Some of my closest friends. Sometimes I ask, “If I leave, what will I have left?” I love this place too much. I can’t leave.

Sometimes people do leave. They leave this place, this community. Sometimes they cleave to each other. When they do, I think, “If I leave, I could be with them. I could be friends again with some of the people I love so much” But no. If I run to one place, I am also running away from another. And I can’t leave. So I can’t do that.

I don’t like cloudiness. I like sun. My extended family lives in Arizona. I love them, I love their church. So then, “If I run away, I could run there”. But, again, no. How could I leave my family, my community, all of my closest friends? I couldn’t.

Oh how I wish we could all somehow come together! Cross divides and cross countries to worship God as one. I wish we could stop being stubborn and merge and bind and commune together. But no, you cannot change human nature. Emotional scars and broken relationships can’t be healed just because one girl wants to have all the people she loves together.

Oh wait, yes they can.

One day, we will shed mortality. We will shed our “human natures” that hinder us from unity. One day we will all stand before the throne. We will all worship together. Those who have been hurt and those who live afar off, we will no longer regard any differences. They will be lost and forgotten–as if they never were.

Forgiven, we shall be One in heaven.

Song stuck in my head right now: ‘Mighty to Save’ by the Newsboys

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